Mom’s Final Wishes
Yesterday evening, as the sun was setting, I chose to open one last file of papers to end another day of sorting through the vast accumulation of stuff that my mother gathered over the...
Clutched hands
(Originally written on September 11, 2020 but delayed publication because life…) Voraciously, she eyes the milkshake. It is known. Familiar. Her clutched hands reach out to try to grasp it. Fingers curled in on...
Thoughtfulness
Friday, March 13th. Until 12:30pm. Was the last time I was able to visit with my mom. Hold her hand. Look into her eyes. And see recognition. Know. In my bones. That she knew....
Holding my breath
Mom’s hospice nurse has checked in with us on a regular basis during this quarantine. We have also been receiving weekly updates from her community. And then. A few days ago. They announced that...
Breathless
After having been a bit off this past week (physically due to food poisoning that lingered), I went out for a short jog yesterday. It felt good to feel my heart pumping again. To...
Underneath
Last night we were enjoying a most scrumptious meal of tuna via the Honolulu Fish Company. It was so lovely that I thanked the spirit of the fish that gave its life so we...
Aging
(Today’s post takes quite a different turn. I hope you find it amusing and return) Someone exceptionally extremely sharing my life with me close. Recently asked me. Inquired. If perhaps he should might kind...
Stuff
We are overwhelmed overruled overcome by stuff. During this time of quarantine pandemic it seems even more odd. As we seek out toilet paper and groceries. Some things we truly need. I either did...
Everyday Heroes
During times of crisis weirdness uncertainty. It seems almost natural to think of our childhood superheroes. Or at least the powers we believed them to hold. The ability to fight evil and take care...
Mourning in stages
Those of us who have watched witnessed held vigil over a loved one dying. Are too familiar with the concept of mourning in stages. Chasing down symptoms. Settling on a prognosis. Doing anything everything...